Monday, August 31, 2009
the new new cruelty
Yet again, I turn over a new leaf.
Yet again, we begin The New Cruelty.
And all because of that picture up there.
Okay, no. I take that back. I'm doing it for a lot of reasons. But that picture is my main incentive, my definite catalyst. My Elba.
It looks like a pretty good picture. When you consider that my three-year-old took it using an old point-and-shoot camera, it's almost impressive.
"That's a good picture of me," I said.
"You look cute," my husband said.
And then I saw it.
The double chin.
One month off the wagon. One month of depression and inertia, eating whatever I wanted, doing no exercise, drinking no water. The scale says I haven't gained any weight, but there's a definite difference in the fat-to-muscle ratio.
And FREAKIN' DOUBLE CHIN. Look.
I now hate this picture. This is not who I want to be. I may never be a "thin" girl. But I resolve to not have a double chin.
So I'm back on the wagon.
I will eat less than I want to.
I will eat more vegetables and protein.
I will eat less carbs and sugar.
I will drink nothing but water. Mostly.
I will exercise. Maybe not every day, but most days. I'm back on the Shred.
I will not eat after 8pm.
I will not bake.
I will succeed.